Monday, April 30, 2007

We Are In!!!!!

I never thought I would say those words. I just got a confirmation email from my adoption agency stating that the referrals go through November 1st this time around. Which means, sometime this week, we will have a picture of our baby's face. I can't believe it's finally happening. It will be two years this May that Jerry and I went to the adoption seminar and started the ball rolling. I feel as though I should be documenting everything with a video camera because I don't want to miss a thing. I guess that ladybug we saw Friday really did bring good luck. I also got a fortune cookie Saturday which of course I threw away, alluding to good news coming.

Here is the official news from my agency.


We are excited to announce that the CCAA has mailed the next group of matches to our agency! We hope to receive this match group within the next 2-3 days. The CCAA has updated their internal website to state that they have matched dossiers logged in through November 1, 2005. We are very excited for our families who are expecting matches! As always, we will update this site when more information becomes available.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Another One of These

landed on a student Friday. The student showed me and I took the little thing and put it on a leaf. Pretty amazing that once again, during referral time, a ladybug showed up. Of course last time, there was a huge dissappointment with referrals as CCAA only did two days worth. Therefore, I am not putting any stock into this little bug this time around. Okay, maybe a little bit of hope but that's it.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Ramblings from the Bedroom

I woke up on Friday with my throat killing me and a fever but I knew I had to go to work because we had a field trip planned. Of course, the only day it rains in SoCal is when our classes are going on a field trip. So I pull my aching body out of bed, drag myself into the shower, and attempt to make myself look somewhat acceptable for school and public viewing. At school, I have parents asking me stupid questions such as am I driving on the field trip today? Um, don't you think you should have asked that at the beginning of the week, not the day of?! Anyway, I manage to make it through the day and when I get home, stand in front of the heater for 20 minutes but still cannot get warm so I call the dog on the bed hoping that he can help because hey, people lost on mountains have survived just from the heat of their pet.

By the time Jerry comes home, I'm running a high fever and all I want is a cup of chicken noodle soup. Is that too much to ask? I guess for my husband it is. He comes home with my soup and tells me that I probably won't like it because it has rice in it. Okay people, the soup isn't even chicken noodle! There isn't one sign of a noodle and it has all these weird vegetables in it. As I'm throwing it away, Jerry tells me that I should have told him I didn't like it and he would have gone out and gotten me different soup. HELLO!!! If he'd gone to the place I told him to the first time, we wouldn't be have been having this conversation. By this time, my throat is feeling like it's in hell and I'm ready for bed so off I go, without a stitch of chicken soup in my tummy.

The next morning, my glands are killing me, I can barely swallow, and I feel like I'm about to die. I manage to drag myself to the computer where I am convinced that I have strep throat. After some coaxing, I convince Jerry to take me to the Dr.'s office where Jerry insists that I do not have strep throat. He also tells me that if I don't, he will never take me to the doctor again. I keep telling him that I do. The doctor does the test and low and behold, I have strep.

So on the way home, Jerry is feeling very guilty and stops to get my chicken noodle soup at the place I had asked him to go to the night before. We get home and I am finally in bed, with my drugs, soup, and gatorade at my bedside. What more could a girl want? This is where I have stayed for the last 3 days and continue to do so until I go back to work tomorrow. I have made some interesting observations while being in bed for 3 days.

Observation #1 When hubby feels bad for denying one of an illness, he actually does laundry. Forget the fact that he hung my pajamas up on hangers and lost a sock of mine, he actually did ALL of the laundry. Observation #2 There is absolutely nothing on the 500 channels you have when you are allowed to lay in bed all day. Observation #3 The plight of polar bears in the artic is very sad which makes me want to start doing something to save our earth from global warming. Observation #4 The Price is Right is still the best show on morning television. Observation #5 It is possible to not brush your hair for 3 days. Final observation, my leg hairs grow back black, not blonde like they used to when I was young. Like I said, ramblings from the bedroom!

Monday, April 16, 2007

It's About Freaking Time I started It

My good friend Elizabeth came over this past weekend and we started stenciling the babie's nursery. Elizabeth and I worked our butts off all day and I think we did a farely decent job, considering it was our first big stenciling project. It's not finished but here are some pictures of what we did.

Wait, what was that? Where was Jerry you ask? When he wasn't fooling around with the patio cover, mowing the lawn, or eating at the party next door, he was yelling encouraging words through the front window! Thanks hon!

Here is the tree with birds. I might add a few more leaves but I love this tree.

The mushrooms were a pain to stencil because it had 3 different layers and we had to wait for the paint to dry before we could do the next stencil.

I love this momma turtle with the baby. (It could be a daddy turtle too!)

Monday, April 09, 2007

It's True!!!

China has only referred two days worth of log in dates. I received an email from my agency this morning confirming the information. I was very upset last week but have cooled off quite a bit. There are many dissapointments that happen in life and I can say this was a large one but it's not the end of the world and I will survive. Ultimately, Jerry and I will end up with a child, it's just a matter of when. I'm not sure where this serenity is coming from but I have the whole week off from work and it's a beautiful spring day in California. I can choose to be depressed and ruin my whole week and for that matter the rest of the month but this time I choose not.

I am grateful to be alive and able to hear the birds chirping and the smell the spring flowers. Jerry and I are even planning a mini vacation the first week in June since he has 5 days that he has to take before July. I don't know what the future holds as to when we will receive our referral, but I have a line to a song playing in my head. The verse goes, "pick yourself up, brush yourself off, and start all over again" and that my friends is exactly what I am doing.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Blowing off Steam (warning, cursing involved)

The new news on the rumor sites is that China has only done 2 days worth of referrals. This has never happened in the history of referrals. China did refer 5 days last year but nothing less. I am blown away right now and very angry. If this latest rumor is true, then it won't be until the end of July when we get our referral. This is total BULLSHIT!!!!! We are only 7 days away from our LID and this shit happens. I am very discouraged right now. Maybe it's just not meant to be for Jerry and I to be parents. We won't know for sure what the cut-off date is and I hope that I can look back and laugh or delete this post but right now, it's not looking that way.